I feel as if I've been on the worst roller coaster ride of my life. Since my children were born I've been working part-time. I returned to school in 2007 and everything seemed copacetic. However, I had an emotional crash two summers ago and took a break from school. I began working out, eating right. I wanted to get healthy both physically and mentally because it suddenly didn't make sense to continue with school if I was unhealthy in both areas. I believed, some how, I couldn't do it all at once. When I was in school, I focused on school and my health was put on the back burner.
My entire life has been that way. I found ways to escape and forgot about me.
After I began my new healthy life style, I thought I could take a full-time position at work (taking care of other people five days a week) and continue my new lifestyle. I took the plunge in July of 2012 and two weeks later my brother gave up on life and committed suicide. I heard he was feeling drained both physically and mentally so my new life change seemed ironic. However, working full-time with the emotional pain of losing my older brother has been the greatest challenge of my life. Two months ago I went to the hospital ready to commit myself for depression. I had a decision to make, call work and tell them I won't be in for a week or begin therapy sessions once a week. That evening I had an appointment with a local University to discuss a Bachelor degree program. Since then, my depression eased and my therapist thought full time school and work was too much for me. I decided to return to part-time and go to school full-time. I feel as if the roller coaster stopped and I've stepped onto safe ground. I worked out yesterday and today. I'm making better food choices and I quit smoking. The program I'm taking for my BA is in Family Life Education. The program, so far, is focused on healing ourselves. I believe I'm right where I need to be now and I just had to share it with you. With this in mind, I am going to come back here weekly (once again) and report my progress. Thank you for sharing my journey.
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